let us all declutter our lives

one of the most crucial tasks in life involves weeding out through the maze of irrelevants.

the junk mails from inbox

junk from the closet

trash from the bin

read messages from the phones

and things/issues/incidents of the past which are specific to each person.

time is the master

many years ago
today it was a day full of surprises for her, to begin with he was keen to take her to the hang out joint. "is he out of his mind?", she thought to herself and even expressed the thought in no disguised manner. "what the heck!! what is wrong?" echoed the parents, "we have a train to catch in 2 hours, don't you remember beta?" "oh mom, come on let me take my little sister out just for once, there is a very nice bakery on the way so we can pick up those pastries you two like so much."
it was their son afterall and he had to have his way. so off the two went, as she sat pillion on his 'bike', she wondered whatever happened to those days when he was like this 'fun big brother' to her. well "stupid me", she thought, "there were never such days. it is a utopian belief that elder brothers can be nice and sharing with their 'clingy' little sisters. so while she wondered if there was something, some 'greater' reason behind this sudden shower of brotherly love on her. yes it was true that he had long moved out of the house and she too had grown up ever since then. but still...well she had biiiig doubts.
it was an inkling of the things to unfold that evening. "she is coming here right now." period..... all that they had now was to overcome these 15 minutes of most awkward silence - brimming with rising tide of queries in her mind for him...almost worried that he could hear her brain working full capacity not to sort but to spill them out. she felt it was better not to ask right away, 'she' could be here any minute. it was not a very good first impression to be meeting the "would be" of her only brother, caught on a wrong foot discussing details and stream of 'hows and whys' which were as evident as 'troubles' - that were warned against to pandora.
eventually, they met and it was true that she could not believe many things, many things she almost assumed about her elder brother, and was very glad to find out how wrong she was.. then there were things, which looked cumbersome. any many many more things, suddenly she felt she had grown multiple understandings, many ways to look at the situation. many views which people of one family could hold.. pity, she felt like a grown up now.
how soothingly cosy it felt to be the "youngest in the family'. most of the matters were considered not worth her worries and were never mentioned to. she was blessedly granted to continue with her faith in her warm world where everything was constant...love between the family and its members, equations that were nothing but constant, parents who were always there, studies were a stress of just exam days. it was the big brother's burden to top every year not hers, she was allowed to be happy to pass with decent grades. not many hopes /ambitions for her, anyways she was too young then to understand half the things which go on in any family. whatever was said was true always - was it not?
but not now, somehow today he felt her to be the most appropriate person to first break the news to. to melt the ice, "what was expected of her?". to build the ground ....how?? when she did not know anything about them. what could she possibly say to him or to the parents? was he seeking her opinion at all?
was she so grown up?

5TH MAY

TEST OF THE SEED BEGINS BY SPROUTING IT

zindagi ki yahi reet hai haar ke baad hi jeet hai

aaj gham hai to kal hai khushi

zindagi ki yahi reet hai

so what is your pick?

1. To be Happy even when you do not have it?
2. To be Happy only if you have it?
3. To be Unhappy even if you have it?
4. To be Unhappy when you do not have it?

ps: "It" can be anything...

it is important to note that comments should be as far as possible on the options and not what fellow commentators have to say

every time it is scary to find out how fragile the whole thing is......

नमस्ते london

यूँ तो संग अपने इक दुनिया चलती है

पर छुप कर सीने मैं तन्हाई पलती है

Loving breath of life blows
stringing the points of my scattered being
the ever illusive self glistens- teasingly, far behind (heavy veils).
awakening consciousness dawns upon an awaiting horizon,
as eager reality reflects now and then through the circumvents of spiral existence.
fingers of my beloved play through the hollowed spaces on the spinal veena
haunting melody resonates through out

six and half...

Wat does one do with all the bagful of shortcumings? Just when i feel it is gud enough, it shows it is not...may be just to put me in the right place. one can never be guaranteed about human nature. are there any insurance guys who can guarantee that/ any finishing schools/ any civilizations? any religions? any education/political/economic/social system but ones own self?????

all i can be assured of is this moment right now...when i am ....who knows what it would be just as why sulk what it was.
i am, responsible-capable, for the moment now.

this is for the comp guy who showed up today at my place

it is not good to be not writing for so long. things need to be priortised.
anyways, yesterday was again one of the very very cold days of delih. it is getting incredibly cold here. i mena it used to be cold but not so relentlessly cold days after days and that too in the month of february which was so pleasant always, the month before exam fever gripped us all.
but today after so long i do not want to be writn\g about the changing werather conditions.
yesterday i vited a teacher who has jsut been promoted to the post of reader in a differnt university. well, i had always been struck by her achievemnst in the field of academics, ina sense that she is much young for her position and the amount of work she has come up with. frankly speaking, given the lazy temrament i have, i have hardly read much of her work but for the one which is tomy interest. yes i am a person totally goverened by taste and interests. there was a time when this self idea gave me confidence in my abilities but now somehow i do feel restricted because of this nature. because often the field where in work in requires maintaing multiple inetersts in varying topics and often i find my interest running in different direction than the one which shall bring me benefit in my work. well as i say this i do realize that more or less this goes for me as a whole.
coming back to this person i am currently bent upon focussing, i am allmost sad for teh manner in which to me she seemed to be promoting her work and i am sorry to say her acdemic merit. i mean is it not for others to arrive at?
i am sad for her.

:)

कहना है , कहना है,

आज तुमसे यह यह पहली बार

तुम ही तो लाये हो जीवन में मेरे

प्यार , प्यार, प्यार .....

तुमसे कहनी वालीं और भी हैं प्यारी बातें
सामने सबके बोलो कैसे कह दूं

सारी बातें
आज मगर बस

इतना ही करना है एकुरार
तुम ही तो लाये हो जीवन में मेरे

प्यार प्यार प्यार......

कबसे दिल ने मेरे
मान लिया है तुमको अपना

आँखें मेरी देख रही हैं
जागते सोते यह सपना

मेरे गले में डाल रहे हो तुम बाहों का हार

तुम ही तो लाये हो जीवन में मेरे

प्यार, प्यार, प्यार.....

Touch Wood !

yeh kawn hai jo meri rooh ko choo karr nikala........

someone please tell me what are friends for???

who is a friend?
what are they supposed to do?
when are they required to be by ones side??

time is like sand
it slips out of the hand
whilst one waits for the
right time
pity.....
this only time teaches
once it is gone

amusing :)

A noisy parrot that likes to imitate sounds helped save a man and his son from a house fire by mocking a smoke alarm. while the bird's owner and his 9 year old son slept fell asleep on the couch while watching a movie. they awoke to find their home on fire after hearing the family's amazon parrot, Peanut imitating a fire alarm. "He was really screaming his head off," the man said and added "I grabbed my son and my bird, and got out of the house."

what do i say when i have no thoughts? it is effortless auto moded. gentle comforting wind - benevolent as always reminds me of what this is all about. 'mentholy' cool waves on top -guiding, almost alluring the attention. as the being melts slowly like an offering to this ocean - oh so fathomlessl(y) deep!!! feels like i have belonged here since sweet eternity. does the idol deity feel the same when we offer Him to the Holy waters?
who is melting in whom?

wish there was a man who could see who i really am

khuda e aks

खुदा- ए- अक्स है वो असएस
जो पो-शिदा हर नस्ल मैं है
मंदिर, मस्जिद, गुरू-द्वारेय
हाज़िर्र हर्र जिस्म मैं हैं
यह दर्द-दे दिल
यह घाम- घुफ्फार
बदोलत 'मैं' के कोह्रें हैं
ज़हनी हिसाभ शक्को- शुब्भा
रूहानी इब्बादत के कांटें हैं
खुद- ए- अक्स है वोह असास..
हो मरर- मिटे जिनके लिए
यह कौन शख्स माहिर है
जो रूहानी ही ना हुए
वोह किस मंज़र के साहिर हैं
खुद- ए- अक्स है वोह असास..
जो इस लम्हे रगों मैं तेरी
महसूस कर्रा दे जन्नत को
बुलंद तारक तभी पा कर
पहचानेगा कौन पीर है
खुद- ए- अक्स है वोह असास..