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Monday, April 23

Tough times are God's way of teaching 'us' lessons of life
Good times are God's own secret way of testing us whether 'we' remember our lessons
There is a simple saying in Hindi which means - a fully laden tree is humble because it bends forward, whereas a barren tree stands erect in pride.

Tuesday, April 10

konfusions

this is an overlap from free spirit but i wish to share it here

confusions rule the world of words. because words are to be interpretted to make meanings. if i say A, someone else may assume it to be Z. if i say it indirectly, it can be misunderstood. if i say it for X, Y thinks it is for him. it is the tragedy of language.how i wish, we were just blessed with the faculty of feeling the right - intended meaning. it takes a lot of courage to keep trust and faith when all the words (seem to) point otherwise.
other person should be given the benefit of doubt to a reasonable degree. why not hold opinions for a while and let things fall in place - bigger picture?

Wednesday, November 29

the story of a come back

The Girl (henceforth- TG) knew the only thing good about hitting rock bottom was - the only way she could go from there was up. She collected all the strength she could muster and decided to make a come back . So she went back nervous and very -very anxious, her heart thumping at a speed that she felt dizzy. “May be this will be over even before it starts”, she thought while climbing the steep stairs, “and I would collapse right here.” At some corner of her conflicting heart she almost wished that would happen and the ordeal may be over even before it began.

She gently knocked at the door and since it was ajar she peeped in. TG remembered the familiar face- the face of her Prof. that commanded respect. But the teacher did not have the similar familiarity to reciprocate from her burnt out memory. ?”- TG wondered if all of them had wiped out her existence from their collective memory. The Professor waiting in her trademark patient (and somehow being positively patient) manner kept looking at TG. “May be all those years of formal education does work that trick on at least some of them”- TG thought.

Standing there at the door of the class – her class- TG almost pleaded with her unrelenting heart to slow down and dared a hesitant glance at the seating area. Her eyes came across at least 60 young faces – familiar faces ..all of them surfacing from the bottom chambers of her vague, hazy memory to her present moment of ordeal- “may be if she looked deeper in their eyes at least some would acknowledge her existence.” As if to serve a proof to her claim to be present at the moment and place where she was present – an institution to which she had earned her position. TG could not help but wonder.

As a divine intervention from the heavens, it turned out that the Professor was in a rush to finish the topic which she had planned for the day and asked TG a simple question which did not call for any explanations at least at that moment. TG was equally simple in her reply – “Yes Professor, I am from this class” and taking a deep breath quickly walked right inside.

There she was – HB seated alone on the second row from the front corner. As TG hesitated for a second, HB shifted a little inside towards the wall to make space for TG, signaling TG’s first acceptance in her second innings at the institute.

The initial few days rolled on quickly for TG as she was too caught up in the string of official procedures and explanations- submitting innumerable copies of applications and certificates of medical records. After receiving the final green signal to re-join the institute, TG was immersed in catching up with the ocean of pending work (projects, presentations, and reports - assignments that had long back faded from the collective class memory (who copied what from where, which text was good and which one was not to the teacher’s liking…) as everyday students battled with perennial course work assignments that kept popping up like giant monsters ever ready to gobble them up.

TG knew it was a challenge. Slowly TG was faced with a greater challenge of a nature to which she had not clue how to solve. Although no body seemed rude, the class was coldly indifferent towards her. “May be they are too caught up in their own respective cycles of work, too comfy in their own personal zones of trust, friendship and hostilities. Who would like to make space for someone who was a fresher in this game of competition and jealousies -the rules for which had been long decided and the contending groups long recognized? Is that not the way our education system works? Training people to survive in this modern world where it’s a battle everyday. The institute was doing its job well.” TG knew she had herself got into this situation.

TG had sensed abrupt silences that fell when she had walked in the cafeteria or common rooms. There were surprised glances and cold vibes and TG knew the gossip mills were working overtime providing quick fix entertainment and optimum degree of kicks to tired brains and over stressed bodies along with their daily supplements of caffeine and nicotine. TG wondered if anybody really bothered to know the truth as different from fiction. If she could ever break that circle of ice where she was trapped- frozen and lonely very lonely.

It was around this time when TG had a chance meeting with HB in the university special bus on their way back home. As HB boarded the bus and looked around for any vacant seats, TG signaled her to come and occupy the seat next to her. That day as they traveled back few things fell in a perspective for TG.

Both of them talked about casual stuff for a while and then all of a sudden HB smiled gently at TG and said: “you know I never knew that you were the friendly types…..uummm I mean I thought you liked to keep to yourself.”
TG : “Do I come out like that?”
After few seconds of awkward unsure silence TG spoke first:
TG : “Actually I have been finding it so difficult to break in, you know….everybody is so caught up. I feel nobody wants to hear my side of the story.”
HB : “What is it TG?”
TG : “HB can you tell me what’s going on?”
HB : “I don’t know much yaar but I believe there are at least three versions of your story doing the rounds – a) you went on a long leave to appear for your civil services exams; b) you went to some overseas university and have come back for some reason and; c) that you had some relationship problem…”

TG knew that in a place like this there were broadly three category of people : those who eat, drink, sleep dreaming to crack the civil services exam, second are the types whose aim in life is to get a foren degree and the third are the types who do the above two and more to either catch a boy/girl friend or keep one.

She could now locate the insecurity inside those heads. However what appeared most important to TG at that moment was to find one courageous soul (HB) who was mature and sensitive enough to ask TG and not follow the herd mentality by believing the hear say. Someone who was self assured and genuinely wanted to hear what TG had to say about her reasons for long absence. Both of them found a true friend that day.

Years after that day, once TG asked HB about what made her reveal the truth to TG and she said that she wanted to follow her heart and not the rumors. Even today TG wonders about the need of modern civilized societies to spice up their lives with ill-founded rumours at someone else’s cost.

Thursday, November 9

on second thoughts...

i think i have gotta stop focussing on all these things- they make me way too sad. i am sure there are lot of good, positive things happening on planet earth. i will be glad to hear about them. so if anyone knows about some please do share them here.

Tuesday, September 5

words of wisdom

someone once said:
flow with the flow...but don't forget your life jacket!!!

how i wished. it is a strange thing.

when i took my walk down the memory lane
i remembered the feel of it
a sweet agony that i longed- so much
to have me in its embrace
it is a strange thing
far from thought or sense
least of all logic
but it is the heart that is the vicious master
brain is my good friend
it is the heart that is my master..relentless and unpardoning
let me integrate the two
how i wish...
i may so one day
amen

Monday, September 4

curse of matrix

i see so much struggle around me that i wonder where is it all headed? is it all a great, big illussion that all humans are cursed to live in??
i am reminded of a story from mahabharta: when the king of hastinapur (he was probably named shantanu) put across his marriage proposal to ganga (the river goddess); she agreed but on one precondition : that the king would never ever question her on whatever she does.
shantanu agreed, assured that he was going to have no ordinary person, but ganga herself as a life mate.
they were married and soon, the king was delighted to be informed that he was going to be a father. moments after the royal couple had their first child, ganga picked up the infant and went beside the river bank and drowned the baby to its death!!
quite naturally the father was shocked beyond belief, but he kept quiet, bound by his pledge, or else his lovely wife would leave him immediately.
the same cycle went on for other offsprings as well, till the last one, when the king could not bear the trauma any longer and with a heavy heart broke his pledge..well aware that he would find an answer to the primary concern of his life, but would have to live the rest of his life without the companionship of his beloved wife.
ganga, the river godess, then told him that in reality, all of their previous children were actually the inhabitants of the kingdom of the gods- the indralok. however,they had been cursed to visit the mrityu lok, as a reprimand for some mistake that they had made. however, when they pleaded for forgiveness, they were suggested a solution, that although they would have to take birth as mortals but would be spared the rest of the curse, because ganga who was going to be their mother would end their life as soon as they were to be born. however the last child, was not spared from the curse, and he was to pre- destined to lead a human life and live the whole punishment.
this child grew up to be bhishma.

Monday, June 19

dear lord


there are certain things which i absolutely NEED NOW
i need to go to the ocean...i miss it, i remember those enticing waters, clear blue crystal waters, the soothing sea breeze that flows through, even the smell of fish!!
oh dear i remember those good times, that little prayer which went out from my heart, with every breath that i took. how i wished it to come true as a fruit of every good karma which my soul may have stocked up till now

Sunday, June 11

as SHE makes me run


run run run..
like forrest gump
thank god
for, i am not as - dumb.
i shall run
but not from my self
yes i shall run
run through, fast and swift..

Thursday, June 8

empowered

'Empowerment is really an 'in' word these days... i mean every one is talking of being empowered - starting right from the right to vote, to present day state sponsored empowerements through affirmative action ie. the right to reservations etc.
let me make it clear at the outset that this post is surely not about raking up the issue of reservations but yes its about empowerment...
so continiung with that,the hottest item on the list of this act of empowerment is -
the knowledge and information expolsion ...empowerment through the click of a mouse, empowerment gained through the rights flowing from being a customer (customer is always right) so much for the advertising and media generated moolah...
but i ask- is it a reall choice on offer...well i have spoken earlier how this "right to know... must come along with a corresponding right to choose NOT TO KNOW... i mean i choose not to know about rahul mahajan's perasonal deatils or his escapades on the other side of the law...please have mercy on my far outstreched, over loaded attention and for heaven's sake spare me the trouble.

but as my natural proclivities insist, i have to mention about this another type of empowerment, which is largely ignored by most of us, but which to my mind is indeed the most empowering thing..

empowerment through acknowledgement of the 'now' moment- which asserts the reality-that the past is over and the future does not exist
all one has is the now moment. that present is the only moment in which i can actually do something, when i am truly in control..empowered to work towards a desired objective...and that this is the only truth 'cause no one has seen the future and that the past is exactly there-in the past.

Sunday, June 4

me..myself..mine..

sometimes i feel things exist in concentric circles.. i mean nothing is ever patterned as linear...for instance this world is flat ---we all can see it but then we all know that it is not- right?
this atleast proves that whatever we see (or percieve from our sense perceptions) per se, is not really for sure the truth...the absolute truth -minus all and any dross (in simple hindi it means-'khot').

somewhat similiarly, this world of relationships that we live in...they all exist in a huge, big ,inter- connected, complex matrix like circle/s and everything is just such a big fruitless run that we all are just running round and round in circles thinking we have found the answers of our lives..what i need ..i know what i want..i know this is the thing for me.. and stuff...
and one day when all of it will be over we may just remember this age old proverb:
'if youth would and age could'

Monday, May 29

fear of the unknown

why fear the unknown when all that is known is so frightning in itself?
some time back i read this piece which suggested that in large parts our miseries ,fears and anxieties are rooted in our obssesion with either the past or the future...which in effect do not allow us to live the 'now' moment.

that actually got me thinking that why cant i let the 'now' be the reality for now...
yes there are many things ..things and tendencies that i know ...in the sense that they are not unknown to me and precisely that is why i can positively do something about them....i can only live and control the now...might as well do that???

Wednesday, May 3

Does evil exist? Did God create evil?

The University professor challenged his students with this question.
"Did God create everything that exists?"
A student bravely replied, "Yes he did!"
"God created everything?" The professor asked. "Yes sir", the student replied.
The professor answered, "If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principal that our works define who we are, then God is evil" (Nouse-O-bila).
The student became quiet before such an answer. The professor, quite pleased with himself, boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the religious faith was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and said, "Can I ask you a question professor?"
"Of course", replied the professor.
The student stood up and asked, "Professor does cold exist?"
"What kind of question is this? Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?" The students snickered at the young man's question.
The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-460? F) is the total absence of heat; all matter becomes inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature.
Cold does not exist.
We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."
The student continued, "Professor, does darkness exist?"
The professor responded, "Of course it does."
The student replied, "Once again you are wrong sir, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light.
Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each color. You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it.
How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present.
Isn't this correct?
Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally the young man asked the professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"
Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course as I have already said.
We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil.

To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist sir, or at least is does not exist unto itself.
Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light." The professor sat down.
The young man's name -- Albert Einstein

Sunday, April 23

SHE is making us run through our debts

our past karmas are obstacles in the path of ultimate- the last quantum leap which all souls are to take..
but we are all bound by the good or bad karma 'phals' which one is supposed to live and bear......for ages..its like a recurring viscious loop...you do good so have positive 'phalas' to live up in the next life and if you do bad then you are to suffer in the next life
so it is like a never ending circle of the good and the bad...'kolhu ke bail ki tarah bus piste raho'in this loop of maya......
so how does one break free??
mother says....jo kuch bhi hai usse iss janam main hi khatam kar ke...jala kar ke jao...sabhi ko apne aap ko...saari circumstances ko bass forgive karo...aur aage bado....run past these.....quick and swift....there is not much time left.....
time is running out....so we are being made to run..run very fast to get past these 'rinas' (karmas)....tabhi shayaad aisa lagta hai ki ek ke baad ek challenges aa rahen hain....

all this has a logic, a very profound reason......this is a big churning going on...the last judgement...
and as it goes....strongest of steels has to pass through the toughest of fires

so that we are free of all debts to step into the next transition..the final one...one that is the culmination of all evolution...the final objective.
amen!

Saturday, April 22

miracle or faith

hope is a magical word capable of spinning miracles.....
afterall what is a miracle?
it is a miracle only as long as we doubt or reject something as impossible...it shall no more be a miracle once we stop doubting and start believing....
when one begins to grow in faith...not blind faith for it could be a mere superstition....but faith that sprouts and flowers on the soils of experience.....things do work out..now if one prefers to call it a miracle, so be it....it still stays that faith which compels GOD to take care...

just like neo experiences in the matrix....he doubts and fails..he believes and succeeds....

Friday, April 21

time is running out...

one must read 'THE THIRD ADVENT'. it speaks of besides various other things, about how one has to believe....believe in the absolute truth and things work out.
things which are or seem to be impossible at first.
human mind has been conditioned by ages of limited understanding...so when ramayana or mahabharata spoke of flying machines or the brahamastra...what could they possibly be?...nuclear weapons... super- sonic jets...when the yogis of those times could read the minds of others...telepathise.....did it mean that some exceptional men in those times had such developed faculties that they could indeed do that? and that these were not myths at all but true accomplishments of those may i say ultra modern times?
how does it make modern man feel...edgy....uncomfortable....we know for sure that the life expectancy in those times was much more than what the modern medicine has been able to bargain for the so called 'modern man'.
why is that we are conditioned to believe that with the passage of these many thousands of years- human race has progressed? ofcourse we have moved..but movement can be in any direction..it could be a downward movement as well...remember how the harappan civilization was much much advanced vis-a-vis the pre- vedic society which came after almost 2000 yrs of harappan collapse??
science has shown that the human bain has certainly evolved...and with much great speed in the near past....but has our race evolved at the same pace??
if everything in the nature is constantly moving towards evolution..or in the process of the unfolding of a new dialectic/development than why is it that this species in general is suffering so much...from all sorts of physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual distress...if modernity as we understand it; is the criteria of 'growth' 'progress' etc. then why is it that a country like japan has the one of the highest suicide rates in the world!
something is deeply wrong somewhere.....it just does'nt fit....
are we missing something very vital...something so essential.. a core a nucleus- without which the whole evolutionary process or the quintissential logic of whole existence is upside down..topsy turvy?
and probably the more critical question is CAN WE AFFORD TO CONTINUE TO NEGLECT IT ....TIME IS TICKING AWAY....tick..tick...tick